11-30-09

I woke up with the sheets wet, same as the morning before. I figured it was sweat, thought nothing of it and went about my morning. My husband took me to my mother's house and then he went to pay a friend a visit. Alone in my mother's house I started to feel concern because I felt as though I was leaking. My mother convinced me to call my midwife, so I did. My Midwife told me to go see her so she can check if I was indeed leaking amniotic fluid. Called my husband, he turned right back around. On our way to see the midwife I started to feel contractions, not very painful, 20 or so minutes apart (maybe).

We arrive at my midwife, she tells me that she is going to take a swab and if it turns blue I am leaking fluids. Super nervous, I laid there looking over at my husband who didn't know what to make of the situation. When she pulled out the swab it was blue and my heart just sunk and I never seen my husband look so stricken with grief. My dreams of a water birth were shattered. I was afraid. She said I had a hind link, we didn't understand what that meant. I thought that I was going to have to go to a hospital.I was so worried about my baby. She sent me home with a small bottle of Castor oil and told me to drink it with a shake.

What seemed like hours later we arrived home, and shortly after my mother. I ate a slice of pizza, and waited. My Midwife arrived, and then my sister. My contractions were getting closer but not super painful yet. They were about 8 or so minutes apart, she tells me to go for a walk and to come back when they were 5 minutes apart so me and my husband did. I was tired and had to rest.

I changed into my moo moo and tried to relax. I was physically drained before the work even started. I started to feel a little nauseated, I guess that oil and pizza was kicking in. I vomited something serious, and that was painful. I remember the Midwife checking to see how dilated I was and soon after the pain and contractions worsened. I had envisioned my mother and sister being in the room with me the entire time but once things started getting intense the door to the room was closed and the lights were dim, and it got really quiet.

There was so much pain in my lower back and I was so exhausted! I kept switching from laying propped up to being on all fours. I kept feeling like I had to pass a bowl but every time I went to the bath room, nothing. Between contractions I was in and out of sleep. Then I was in and out of the bathroom. My poor husband was just following me around, obeying my commands. The pain was so intense I had to move to the floor. I was leaning over the bed, wondering if it was too late to go to the hospital. I wanted the pain to stop. I wanted to go to sleep. I wanted to quit. I felt like I could not physically do it. My Midwife pretty much stayed out of it. Oh there was another midwife. I don't remember when she arrived and I hadn't meet her before that day. I got back on the bed and felt like I had to push. I pushed. I rested. I contracted. I pushed. I was in every position I could think of. I was hot, I was cold, then hot again. Turn on the fan! Turned off the fan! Now repeat! I was so uncomfortable, finally moo moo came off. The bed was not working for me.

I need my mom, call my mom! My mom comes in. I tell my husband and mom to help me up and they move me to the floor. On my back, leaning over the bed, none of this was working. I start to squat. My mother and husband are physically supporting me with my arms over their shoulders. I push. He crowns. I want to lay back down. My husband and mom carefully lay me back down. My midwife was telling me to push,and I did not want to. I'm not sure what she was doing but I felt like I was being ripped apart. It hurt worse then the contractions, at one point I shoved her hands away from me. I can hear my husband tell her not to cut me, but I really wish she would have, I feel it would have saved me a lot of pain and saved me from the tear I did get. They tell me I have to push because his head is almost out and it wasn't good for him to be stuck like that for too long.  I was so scared. I hear my mom saying "he's right there, feel his head". I touched his head. His full head of hair felt smooshy  and I yelled from shock. When his head was out they can see that his hand was coming out with it. His little fist was up against his face. I tell my mom to call for my sister. I gave one last long push, 12:40am 11-30-09 he was born.


The Midwife put him on my chest. My husband looks over at my sister and starts to cry. He cuts the cord. I deliver the placenta. I attempted to breastfeed. My mid wife asked if I was ok to shower. I thought I was, but I wasn't. I lost a lot of blood and while in the shower I momentarily passed out. When I came thru everyone had just rushed in and I was sitting on the floor of the shower looking up not realizing what had just happened. Luckily I did not hit my head but I did hit my side on the faucet and almost completely took it off the wall. I was helped out of the shower. Got dressed and while I ate my little angel was weighed and measured. 7lbs 6oz 22inches and perfect.

I was in labor for 6 or so hours and pushed for about 45 or so minutes. It was terrifying, but even including all the mishaps I wouldn't change a thing and I can't wait to do it all again!

Mini Blog When I Was Preggo - Part 2

My son's birthday is a little less then 2 months away so naturally I've been thinking a lot about my pregnancy and birth. I have been wanting to tell our birth story but can't get started and don't really know where to start. I thought maybe it's be best to start with the mini blogs I was posting on myspace when I was pregnant, so I guess here I go....

July 29, 2009

What Have I Been Up To?

Let's see...

I got a new maternity belly ring with a little blue pacifier

I got a maternity pillow, well more like a wedge that is suppose to keep me in place but some how I still end up on my back

rearranging my house and clearing out the clutter

I have been clearing out the nursery making room for the baby

shopping around for nursery furniture (crib is on it's way)

letting by gones be by gones

enjoying a new group of people

becoming a more positive person

still researching philosophy and inspirational quotes

hating the heat and living on the third floor

ordered a more appropriate bathing suit

wondering if wearing a bikini is distasteful for preggos

went canoeing which was a very nerve wrecking physically stressful event due to the fear of all the alligators i saw

got new much needed sneakers and flip flops

got some new house hold items

did a little clothes shopping

took some maternity pictures

August 8, 2009

6 Months
Current mood:  smitten 

Where does the time go!?! Do I seriously only have less the 3 months to go?

His kicks are getting stronger, I can see them through my clothes. Sometimes it feels like he's rolling around in there other times I swear he's pissed at me. It feels like he's laying on his back kicking upward as if he's having a temper tantrum other something.

Already I do feel immense love and closeness to this baby I have yet to meet. 

September 5,2009

7 Months
Current mood:  anxious

has it already been seven months!?!

there hasn't been any huge changes in the past month, expect for becoming larger.

last Wednesday i did vomit. it was the first time in this entire pregnancy. i had an empty stomach and was in the middle of preparing breakfast. all of a sudden i got these really bad hunger type pangs and rushed to the bathroom... talk about acid indigestion. about 6 or so years ago i was ill and was told by a doctor that i had an excess amount of acid in my stomach he gave it a name and everything i never took anything for it and when i got better i forgot all about it till this happened.

i finally gave in to buying a larger bra size but it seems i've should have waited a tad bit longer lol. i did mange to buy a few tops but can't seem to find some nice fitting bottoms to go with them, besides black or gray leggings. I don't even want to look at long pants... it's far too hot and i'm far too uncomfortable as it is.

September 8, 2009

8 Months 

Holy Shit! 8 friggin months.

acid reflux if i lay even awhile after eating.

tired, aching feet and legs.

line running down stomach curves around belly ring which amuses me.

belly button some what out... also amusing to me.

mother calls me Bertha butt... sis is amazed at my growing ass and areolas, lmfao.

waist lines are over rated!

want to deliver at birth center.

concerns about my low lying placenta.

can't decide on baby's name.

choose to go to birth center, is it too late in pregnancy to switch maternity care?

placenta is low but not in the way or at all a concern.

wondering if it's too late to go to birth center.

feeling clueless and confused.

planning on natural birth or at least as little intervention as possible. 

November 1, 2009

9 Months

 

37 weeks, only a few short weeks to go.

I get twinges in my lower regions and great pains in my upper thigh area where my thigh meets my hip.

He makes quick jerky movements that are rather painful.

I can't get in a comfortable position and don't sleep well at night.

When I'm able to sleep I have odd dreams.

I wanted a water birth at a birth center but didn't know that i could actually have that as an option or where to look.

Late in pregnancy I learned my options but felt it was too late to make the switch. Here I am almost 38 weeks and I now have a Midwife.

God willing I will have a natural home water birth. I live less then 10 minutes from the hospital if anything medical attention is needed.

Mini Blog When I Was Preggo - Part 1

My son's birthday is a little less then 2 months away so naturally I've been thinking a lot about my pregnancy and birth. I have been wanting to tell our birth story but can't get started and don't really know where to start. I thought maybe it's be best to start with the mini blogs I was posting on myspace when I was pregnant, so I guess here I go....

May 30, 2009

2 Months 

Current Mood: Ecstatic

Mid February Stu started to really consider my thoughts on starting a family. After a few days of discussion and lots of terrifying research (videos of child labor) that almost turned me off  to the whole idea we agreed to try.

After getting my period the first time around I did a little more research (finding out my fertile days etc.) After trying again I could not wait to be late so at 4 weeks I tested and it came out a faint positive. At 5 weeks I tested again and it was a definite positive.

At what I thought was 9 weeks had a sonogram and the doctor measured the baby figuring I was 9 weeks and 3 days which would mean we were actually successful the last day we tried before getting my period. 

This is the first sonogram of our little bundle of joy.

May 18, 2009

3 Months
Current Mood: Relaxed

so today we went to a new closer doctor. i had a sonogram done. it was a very enlarged image of our baby. the baby was very active and waving back at us. we were able to hear the heart beat and apparently i am further along then what was first thought.

the doctor is almost certain what the sex of the baby is but i will wait till my next visit to be sure before spilling the beans.

Second sonogram, doc is pretty sure of the sex

June 15, 2009

4 Months

Current Mood: Smitten

On Friday we were expecting to have sonogram done that would determine the sex of the baby for sure, instead we only got to hear the heart beat and have to wait another month.

Ahhh, I need to know. I want to order a maternity belly ring online before I have to remove my current one but don't know what color to get.

June 27, 2009

Movement

Current Mood: ecstatic 

So since about 16 weeks or so I have been feeling movement in my tummy and it felt like what I have read (fluttering, etc.) but I wasn't quite sure if it was the baby or if it was gas lol. They have been getting stronger and feel like bubbles popping, still kind of like gas but different.

Most recently while laying quietly I can feel the baby moving around as though he's trying to get comfortable. Yesterday while laying in bed trying to fall asleep I rested my hands on my lower abdomen between my hip bones and I surely felt the baby move it's way between my hands as if I was crowding it.

Today I felt 2 very strong kicks or punches. It felt like the baby was trying to punch it's way through. I had my mother lay down with me and had her put one hand on one side of my abdomen while mines on the other. I thought we'd be waiting there a while but soon enough the baby kicked her hand and her reaction was of such love, joy, and amazement.

July 1, 2009

It's A Boy

Current Mood: smitten

It's seems like so long ago I went to my second prenatal visit and the doctor said that it looks like I was having a boy but that we should wait before spilling the beans for it was still a little early.
I have been longing for this day. Today it was confirmed.
IT'S A BOY!!!

Sonogram confirming it's a boy

July 6, 2009

5 Months

Current Mood: blissful

Half Way There...

I have been thinking about where I was 5 or so months ago.

I was talking to a former friend about how I really wanted to start trying to have a baby. It came up a few times between Stu and I but for him it wasn't the right time (mostly he was concerned with finances). He wanted me to be able a stay at home mom.

So anyway mid February I brought the idea to the table again and again he seemed unsure. He came home one day, we spoke, and we started trying for a baby. I was excited to say the least but I'm very superstitious, and felt that if I wanted this too much it would not happen or take forever, or that he would change his mind lol.

The first month of being pregnant I didn't feel like anything. No symptoms or signs other then frequent urination (but even that wasn't much of a bother). Oh wait I was extremely irritable but I don't know for sure if that was due to the hormones or if I was just being my self reacting to what was going on at the time. Any who.

Then came complete exhaustion all the time. I felt as if the baby was sucking the life out of me. Seriously! Luckily that has been the extent of my pregnancy woes.

I kept waiting to show and around 4 months I started to develop a little plump, but nothing noticeable so it was kinda disappointing. But now at 5 months you can definitely see a baby bump but I'm wondering since I'm so small still if I'm just looking fat to the outside world. Anyway some how I don't really care, I am very proud of my changing body and why it is changing.

I have been thinking about where I have been in the last 5 or so months. Lots has happened, all for the better (though at the time it didn't seem as so.) 

I'm super duper happy and I couldn't ask for more or less then what I got.

Oh and my husband is the absolute best.

July 9, 2009

There's a Human growing inside me!

Sometimes I sit and think about what I'm actually doing... and the thought can be mind boggling. There is a person growing inside me.  I am creating life. I know that child bearing is the most natural and normal thing I can possibly ever do, but at times the feeling is so odd and unreal.

I can feel him moving inside me as he settles into my lower abdomen. I can feel him getting comfortable after a big meal. He's kicks and punches tell me he's ok and lets me know I'm getting closer to holding him in my arms.

Every movement reminds me of the love me and my husband have for each other.

There's no greater gift that we can give each other then to come together and share in the creation of this miracle.